I know I've had an extended hiatus from writing since February but I hope to be back now with at least some regularity. I turned 26 last week and am writing this short, belated birthday post about my three regrets of the past five years and my three hopes for the next five years. The … Continue reading On Turning 26
Un-mask Coursing. Rushing Fool's heroine running wild through veins Panting The slow build of steady fire, flames sweetly consuming stomach lining. Bidden, begged for Butterflies? Nah, some crazed creature with claws. Tearing resistance away with promised pleasure. Palpable, the color of passion consumes intimate places pulsate Red not the angry kind. Stop. Thoughts screeching. Look … Continue reading A Second Prayer for the Sexually Tempted
"Follow your dreams" If there's one statement that sums up the overall American mindset for the last hundred years, it's that. A relic from our ancestors' "American dream," exalting dreams to a status they neither deserve nor can fulfill is almost in our blood. And for the follower of Christ, dreams must first be submitted … Continue reading Dreams Ought Not be god
This post is likely going to draw some criticism so let me say from the outset that this is not a post against those who home school and it is not bashing homeschooling as "lesser schooling" in any manner. It's simply a request that we find our unity in Christ Jesus, not the way in … Continue reading Homeschooling is Not the Only Way
Sight Whether you're being tempted by words in a book, images in your head or false pixels on a screen, the ultimate problem is that you're not exalting Christ as Lord above all things. I know your heart whispers "as long as it stays inside my head, I'm good " However, Christ says it's the … Continue reading A First Prayer for the Sexually Tempted
"Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly. Never be wise in your own sight."--Romans 12:15 Do weddings stir up pain for you or make you uncomfortable? Though my joy overflows for the bride and groom, I usually burst into … Continue reading The Hard Path of Choosing Rejoicing over Envy
It's an understatement to say that beauty or "hotness" if you will is one of America's most precious and invasive gods. Everywhere. Six packs and bulking arms. Legs longer than my torso and flat stomachs abound. We're constantly embroiled in these messages. These messages truly make it seem as if there's only one way to … Continue reading Are You Willing to Die to Having a “Hot” Spouse?
In many ways, walking with Christ recently has been more like licking a dry creek bed and choking on its dust rather than being filled with living water. I don't feel loved by Him. I can hardly bring myself to care about the things He cares about. For the first time in the six years … Continue reading God, Help Me Call You Wonderful Again!
We are inundated every day with messages that say the late-teen/early 20s of one’s life are to be some of the best, filled with sunshine and everything beautiful sustained by the vigor of youth (and used to whatever end our little hearts desire). These subconscious expectations caused terrible dysphoria because mine were bleak, tear-stained years … Continue reading On Turning 25: The Failure of Youth as All-Satisfying
I wish the instinctive wariness every time I meet a new person or enter a new environment wasn't second nature to me. I don't mean to be suspicious of people (often even my closest friends and mentors) or second-guess their motives. It's awful. But growing up, I had to second guess all motives. Abuse was … Continue reading Following Christ with PTSD