"Follow your dreams" If there's one statement that sums up the overall American mindset for the last hundred years, it's that. A relic from our ancestors' "American dream," exalting dreams to a status they neither deserve nor can fulfill is almost in our blood. And for the follower of Christ, dreams must first be submitted … Continue reading Dreams Ought Not be god
600 Days. Terrible. Impossible. Unwanted. 14,400 Hours. Without you. Without us. Me without a mom. 1 year. 7 months. 23 days. How on earth am I here without you? Time is still marked by your absence, whether I will it or not. There’s so many things I want to tell you. So much about my … Continue reading Grief: 600 Days Later
We are inundated every day with messages that say the late-teen/early 20s of one’s life are to be some of the best, filled with sunshine and everything beautiful sustained by the vigor of youth (and used to whatever end our little hearts desire). These subconscious expectations caused terrible dysphoria because mine were bleak, tear-stained years … Continue reading On Turning 25: The Failure of Youth as All-Satisfying
There's a lot of venom flying in all sorts of directions between generations these days. From the younger generations come the cries that "no one understands us" and "you do you" and "I just need a place where I can be myself." The older generations then counter with "you're all just snowflakes" and "at 18 … Continue reading Are Christians Guaranteed Safe Spaces?
"You could've been a doctor after 8 years of schooling" “Are you going to be employable after you get your Master’s?” I sighed. Cue the waves of regret. These two statements threatened to put a huge damper on any excitement for my upcoming entrance into seminary. Because they’re true. I could've been a doctor in … Continue reading Encouragement for the Indecisive Graduate
Often in the American church, gluttony is considered a "sin of the past" or, increasingly more common, not a sin at all. Everywhere you look, more is better. More fries on the side, more burger for your buck, more sauce slathered on everything imaginable. We're encouraged to gorge at our slightest whim or achievement with … Continue reading Too Much Food, Too Little Stewardship
[An imaginary letter/writing exercise/coping mechanism/processing outlet] Dear Miss Right, I've met you many times. I felt like such an outcast in college because I wasn't you. And I still do. You're the girl who grew up in a decent (or maybe even pretty nice) house with her parents and maybe a sibling or two. Your … Continue reading To The Girl with the Perfect Life
We took flowers to the graveyards around this time, just a year ago. Who could have foreseen that this year I'd be without you---and grandma too? Who could have foreseen you'd both be where we stood then---buried. Silent. Absent. Me least of all. Spring invades the air and I can't help but think ---wish, hope, … Continue reading A Short Lament for Mother’s Day
In many ways it's hard to believe that 5 years have passed since the Holy Spirit blazed across the sky of my heart and I passed from death into life. That was the final weekend of my freshman year at college and the Lord had, unbeknownst to me, been working on me all year even … Continue reading A Celebration: 5 Years in Christ, an Eternity to Go!
I generally refrain from political posts but the slogan of a certain tangerine-colored Republican, along with its many earned shouts of agreement nation-wide, has tripped my "thinking wire" several times in the last year. I will advocate for neither Trump nor Hillary (I am on neither side because neither candidate is on my side, dear … Continue reading What if America was Never “Great?”